I guess first off I should say "hello" to everyone out there, not really a Myspace type of person or else I'd be writing this there and make myself a site. But anyways, the point of this.
I went and saw the "Happy Feet" movie today, and was more than impressed, and at the asme time even a little depressed. The story is about a Penguin who can't sing, when Penguins use their singing in order to find their one True Love, and is quite touching and sad in how it portrays everything, though I believe it to be an accurate reaction to that kinda thing. Thebproblem comes in...when I realise that I know how the poor guy feels. My whole life I've been searching...I've enjoyed and lived life as much as I would allow myself...but always was that hope...that dream of that 1 special person who would make me feel a way that no other ever could...that 1 person with the Heartsong for me...but it just seems that like Mumble...I just can't sing.
I spent 3 years caring for someone who barely realised or cared that I was alive..hwo lied and manipulated me...And I can't help but wonder if it was my "crappy singing"...The only difference is, unlike Mumble...I can't find, or at least don't know, a way aside from singing to convey my "Heart's Desire" aside from blunt talking, which, no offense, never works. The thing that I have heard the most in my life is "You're a nice guy..."...It hurts when you're in the midst of a crowd but feel so very alone, I at one time thought I wasn't...I at one time had more Faith than most people could ever hope...I at one time had a sense of self that noone could touch....Now...I'm sitting here listening to "Somebody to Love", staring at the computer screen and typing on a site where barely anyone(is anyone) will read or care what I have to say...With all the songs...and all the music...and all the friends being with someone...there's so much pressure to be with someone else....But it's just so bloody lonely being with most people.